Last weekend I had a terrific time with John, who is an incredible man, and top. As I told him, in my work and in most parts of my life, I am always the one in charge, and sometimes I long for an opportunity just to have a strong man take charge. We decided on role playing, coach and football player about be thrown off the team as a result of bad grades in class. But Coach was willing to pull strings for me and would get me reinstated so that I could be back on the team, if I pleased him! Since I really wanted back on the team, I was willing to do anything to please him, and that is what happened. I am back on the team! It was a time full of challenges, lots of activities, deep breaths, and dependent upon my willingness to follow his directions, respect him for being in charge, and then his pushing my limits, yet respecting them. I was all over the place—standing, sitting, on the floor, on the bed…. We had talked about all of this in advance, on the phone, and through messages, and I was not disappointed although I was pleasantly surprised at times by his energy and good humor! We also took breaks and ventured into various topics of discussion. Finally we took a longer dinner break, went out for a nice dinner, and then back for more “training.” I was so glad to be back on the team, that I felt stimulated all day the following day, and the next! I look forward to the another opportunity with John, and to seeing what his creative fantasies may develop another time. The thought of that is inspiring! My expectations were exceeded: what a pleasure and a huge sense of therapeutic relief and release! I am still smiling……
